Bouncing

Been trying for an hour to think of something profound to say.  Old habits die slowly.  The past few days have been bouncy.  I’ve had some wonderful connections with God and with people, and one major incident that left me hurt and confused.  (Wish I could tell you about it, but I’m afraid it would only add to the confusion.)

Martin Luther said, “Where God builds a church, the enemy soon builds a chapel.”   That’s probably the case.  Bobo spent yesterday with me.  I’ve known him since he was a ten year old kid, and now at nineteen he’s a gifted musician and worship leader with the tender heart of a servant.   I’ll bet God sent him my way just to encourage me.   He does things like that.

A Good and Pleasant Thing (Psalm 133)

Last night we had a farewell party for Laura, a small gathering of old friends who have worked and played together since 1998. We’ve been through thick and thin, heaven and hell, and become like a family in the process. And this particular gathering felt especially sweet as we laughed and cried over the shared stories.

I can’t imagine the comraderie of soldiers in battle being any sweeter and tighter than the love among missionaries who serve together over the long haul. It’s one of the great rewards of serving the Kingdom in uncharted territory. And it’s sad to think of leaving such wonderful companions so soon.

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Jenny, Merle, Dani, Laura, (Me), and Carolyn

The Tyranny of Things

“First you own things, and then things own you.” I started packing up my apartment this week, picking through letters, keepsakes, and balls of string while my friends are in town visiting over coffee. I REALLY want to be free from the tyranny of this stuff.


“Take care to keep yourselves free from the desire for property; for a man’s life is not made up of the number of things which he has.” (Luke 12:15)

Healing through meal-sharing

I’m currently reading A Glimpse of Jesus – Stranger to Self-Hatred, by Brennan Manning. One chapter entitled “Healing through meal-sharing” provides a beautiful confirmation of the whole concept of “inclusion.” According to Manning, the cultural implications of a first century Jew, (let alone the Jewish MESSIAH!), eating with common sinners was seismic. Meal-sharing was a sign of identification and friendship, and to sit down to dinner with the “riff-raff” of society was a one-way ticket to social disgrace.

For Jesus to share a meal with such people could mean only one of two things: Either he himself was a “sinner”, or sinners were being welcomed into fellowship with God. (And all of this before they even “went to the alter” or prayed a “sinner’s prayer!” “The inclusion of sinners in the community of salvation, achieved in a table-fellowship, is the most dramatic expression of the message of the redeeming love of the merciful God.” That’s what these past months in Sarajevo have been about: including “sinners” in the fellowship of God.

And of course this means I’ve got to stop sorting: Good fish / bad fish…. good seed / bad seed… sheep / goats… I’ve been quite a pharisee over the years, judging who’s on the inside and who’s on the outside of God’s salvation. But obviously that’s not my call to make. All I can do is welcome people to the table and love them as if Jesus himself had included them on the guest list.

Today I did some long-overdue updating on my webpage. (There’s a link to it on the sidebar). Had a wonderful dinner with my Muslim buddy, Nazim, last night. Tonight we’ve got our weekly men’s discipleship group.  Clay’s gonna talk about humility.

Correction

I just did a little re-write of “Random Thoughts” (August 10). Too much attitude in the original post, and I’m not sure how accurately it portrayed the Father. Old stereotypes die slowly, and I suppose I’ll always be wrestling with that prideful know-it-all who’s forever trying to take over my body.

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Some new and old friends at the dinner table.

Can’t get away from it…

Just had two days of 24/7 fellowship with a little group of Bosnian, Swedish, and American friends who came to my apartment for an evening and stayed for two days. Others came and went, sharing meals, playing games, conversing, praying and watching films until the wee hours of the morning. It was a diverse group. Not all of my them professed to know and follow Jesus. But all were included. And this living lesson highlighted my growing awareness that inclusion is the essence of the gospel and the most fundamental thing about God himself.

As near as I can see, the kingdom Jesus spoke of was open to all except two types of people:

  • Those who rejected Him. (Jesus never, never forced himself on those who didn’t want to be around him).
  • Those who rejected others. (Like the Pharisees, who couldn’t deal with a God who hung out with tax-collectors and prostitutes as if they were on the inside track of his love.)

“Love one another… by this shall all men know that you are my disciples.” I used to read this command almost as a postscript to all the real stuff, “Oh… and incidentally, don’t forget to love each other. It’s good advertisement for the kingdom, you know.” But in these past months I’m seeing with new eyes that the most fundamental thing about the Father, Son & Spirit is the love that courses through the Trinity itself. And the only way we can truly reveal who HE is, is to live in that rich inclusive love, first receiving the love of the Godhead into ourselves and then pouring it out indiscriminately to others.

My life is being changed by this idea. “Ministry,” (whatever that really is), just happens effortlessly as I receive the love of the Trinity and then allow it splash out onto others.

I wish I could introduce you to my new friend, Amer, who came into our lives in just that way. He was serving drinks to several of us at a coffee bar when the love of Jesus spontaneously embraced him. He just knew intuitively that he was included, and found himself on the inside of the love of God without having to do anything to get there. “Is he a believer yet?” I’ve almost stopped asking those sorts of questions. What I can tell you is that Amer has caught a glimpse of Jesus, and he’s been following the love that he’s experienced. That same Love will sort out his theology.

Random Thoughts

Been thinking about these global-warming-catastophic-weather-change-disasters, and wondering if we’re not approaching it from exactly the wrong direction. Obviously God has commissioned us to care for the earth, and abusing it will inevitably invite disaster. But in generations past these sorts of things would lead us to examine ourselves and ask God, “Why?”

Today’s media, and most of our global warming gurus have removed God from the picture entirely. And I’m afraid many of us in the Christian community are likely to fall into one of two errors: Either we become discipled by media and pass over the fact that our tender, yet almighty Father is intimately involved in His universe. Or we take the religious bail-out and presume that global warming is just another inevitable sign of the times: why should we care about these things when Jesus will surely be returning in the next couple of years, anyway?

Hopefully we’ll find a better, more Biblical approach.

Clay, Graham, and I launched a guys discipleship group this week. Five Bosnian believers, three of us Americans, and Terry (a dear Brit friend), in attendance. And it was a great kick-off. Lots of good discussion, prayer, and Spirit-life running through the group. I’m very hopeful, and ever encouraged with the growth I see in Alen, Alen, (remember there are two of them), Ahmed, George, and Kenan.

It’s probably not too soon to mention that I’ll be leaving Sarajevo the beginning of October, and possibly not returning. I’m still committed to missions and making disciples of the nations, but I’ll be spending six months in the States on a furlough of sorts while I ask the Lord to talk to me about the next step. It won’t be easy to leave so many dear friends, nor to give up the small apartment that’s become home for me. So your prayers will be appreciated.

Being Included

I knew camp was going to be a powerful experience when I got on the bus, choked down a lump in my throat and felt tears forming in my eyes. God so wants these precious people to know that they are loved and included in His life. And although I’d been asked to speak on “Identity,” the word that resonated in my heart was “inclusion.” Can there be any other Biblical context for understanding who we are apart from being the “beloved of God”?

Their hearts were far more open than I’m used to, and by the end of the message not a few were quietly (and tearfully) receiving the truth that God not only loves them, but He likes them.

Last night I chanced upon a article that opened up the whole idea:

Can you imagine what it must have been like for Jesus the first moment he sat around with the circle of his disciples after they had finally become friends?

We all know what it is to get acquainted with new people, the awkward pauses and measured words as people get to know each other. Certainly the disciples went through that with Jesus. Just who was this Teacher and Miracle-worker and who were these other men who decided to follow him?

It might have happened during a conversation after a meal, or walking together on a road, but at some point they found themselves safe enough with him and each other to let down their guard. No longer measuring words or trying to impress each other, they slipped into the fruits of their burgeoning friendship—the freedom to be honest, to laugh, to ask the seemingly stupid question, and to relax in each other’s presence.

What must that have felt like to Jesus? Had this been what he had always wanted?

For the first time since that cruel day in Eden, God was sitting down with people he loved and they were not cowering in fear. For centuries men and women had stood at a great distance from God, shamed by their sin and intimidated by his holiness. With only a few notable exceptions, people wanted nothing to do with the immediacy of God’s presence. When Mt. Sinai shook with thunder and earthquakes, the people begged Moses to go to God for them. God was a terrifying figure and feeling safe with him was unthinkable.

But God had never thought so. His plan to restore the fellowship with humanity that Adam and Eve had lost in their fall was unfolding. In Jesus, he was able to sit down in the company of those he loved and they were comfortable enough to engage him in a real conversation. What an incredible moment that must have been for Jesus, to be with people who were not so awed by him, that they could not enjoy his presence. (He Loves Me, by Wayne Jacobsen)

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Here are a few of those Jesus loves. It’s not a campfire, but a coffee bar. (I’m taking the picture).

Opportunity

I’m headed off this afternoon to speak at a camp for university students. They’ve asked me to teach on “Identity”, and it’s been a powerful time of preparation. So now I need your prayers that God will make an impact on the students. (Some are believers, and some aren’t.) It’s been HOT as a pizza oven in Sarajevo.

The Truth in Sandals

Earlier this week I had an opportunity to teach a conversational English class in another Bosnian city. It happened to be all girls, which was refreshing in itself. But it was also exciting because these young ladies were real thinkers, mostly university students with active minds. And we were talking about the worldview concept that “ideas produce consequences.”

Year ago, I learned that it never actually works to tell a person, or even to suggest to a person what he/she ought to believe. Even the Father of Jesus didn’t demand unreasoning belief. But rather he placed the evidence before us and challenged honest seekers to “Come… let us reason together,” (Isaiah 1:18) and to “test all things, and hold onto what is good.” (1 Thes. 5:21)

In a world where all truth is God’s truth I’ve seen that when people are challenged to honestly seek the Truth, they will inevitably be led towards the God of all Truth. Even though most of these girls fit squarely into a secular worldview, (products of an educational system that avoids even the mention of God), by the end of our class the conversation had gravitated quite naturally and squarely towards Him.

I love the way Jesus doesn’t make demands. He simply entered our world and walked among us as the Truth in sandals. And yet it feels like I’ve only begun to understand what that means.

I’ll have another opportunity to speak with some of these girls next week. Please pray for all of us here in Sarajevo.